If You Keep on Believing

If I could wish, I would wish I could sing. I would wish I was pretty, had worth and value- not only to others but to myself. I would wish to bend time, to have motivation to make my dreams become even feasible realities. I would wish true love existed, or at least that I believed in it again.

Oh I'd make silly wishes, too. Make my room clean and neat, give me some money, maybe even an extra large pizza with bacon. Grant my phone the power of infinite battery life.

And then there'd be the good wishes: Get me back into college, eradicate my friend's cancer forever, let my Grandma remember. The infamous notion of world peace. A day where everyone would have food, disease would just take a vacation, and everyone could smile if they chose to.

See, wishes are different. They have infinite power, good intentions, few restrictions. Wishes allow freedom of mind and creativity. They do not rely on a higher power who's will and desires oversee our own. Sure, some attribute wishes to genies or stars or even wells halfway filled with water and washed up dreams. Wishes are different than hopes, or even dreams and desires. They don't require life-long commitment, dedication. Wishes can be instantaneous. All it takes is a moment of belief in the impossible.

I wish I believed in them.

Born for This

We are at war with the world.  We are at war with ourselves. We are at war with divinity, morals, and life itself.

I am starting to think this is a fight we cannot win…

Every time I open my eyes I see turmoil, along with its counterpart, ignorance.  And we welcome it. Ignorance keeps us sane, helps shake the covers off of our cold, naked bodies the next day. It helps us survive.

Yet children starve.

People raid, murder, hate.

I am a second class citizen.

"Hold on, baby you're losin it... The water's high, you're jumpin into it and lettin go, and no one knows, that you cry but you don't tell anyone, that you might not be the golden one... And you're tied together with a smile but you're comin undone..."

I don't know if I want all this anymore. For any of us. We try so hard, every day, to make things better, make things right. But there will always be hate, always be sorrow, always be doubt. 

I once thought love would always win. I believed in God and his love and his grace. And I believed in myself.

But maybe I was just born for sorrow.

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So lately i've just been down and wishing i was dead etc nad im too lazy to even look at the screan or use punctuation so yea imma just type and whatever shit comes out comes out. i feel like shit and idk my bf just makes me sad all the time and i make him sad all the time and i dont think im going to heaven and i hate god and my family and everyone else is disappointed in me and i cant even pass a test and i just feel so stupid and worthless and just yes :( i feel like id be better off dead, and i havent felt that way in a long time and im scared and angry and confused and broke and ugly and fat and just... everything. i just want to bleed it out.... and maybe i will....

Be my Human Angel

Just some advice I've come across the past few days:

1. Don't worry about money and tomorrow. There are things worth more than money, and tomorrow is priceless.

2. Know the love around you is bigger than you think.

3. Laugh and smile as often and as much as you can.

4. There's an angel in every dark corner.

5. Always hit the ground running.

6. You WILL make it <3

I've Been Stuck

Lately, I've been stuck in a hole
Feeling empty, somehow.
I just wish I could hug the world
Or leave it.
I can't make up my mind.
All I know is that I have your love
and you have mine.
And that will make all the difference.

No need to Fear! ChaCha's here!

Actual conversation with ChaCha txtline (242-242):

• Is being gay wrong?
• (ChaCha) Homosexuality is of no harm to the participants or to anyone else. If it feels right to those involved, then it's fine.
• Thank you so much <3 That made me feel so much better! <3
• (ChaCha) 1/2 Please don't ever feel bad because of who you are, you are a very special person- always remember that. I'm glad we were
• (ChaCha) 2/2 able to help you tonight. Is there anything else we can do for you?
• No, just know you made my day! thank you so much whoever you are. bless you!! <3
• (ChaCha) You're very welcome! And may God bless you too. No need to fear, ChaCha's here!

I was feeling like a disappointment. To my boyfriend, my family, and to myself. I was thinking about all the friends I may lose. I decided to text them this, just to see what would happen. To me, this is a much needed miracle <3

So remember: No need to fear! ChaCha's here!

Angel On Fire

A few days ago I was at work, by myself, lonely and thinking. I was thinking about my past, what my high school experience was like, my faith. Pain. I was about to cry, then a song came on shuffle on my iPod. I skipped it at first, then skipped back. I am so glad I did! I realized that this forgotten song was EXACTLY how I felt!

No matter what has happened or what people have told you, there is something, someone, that makes you feel like you are just on fire. Hope burns a heavy flame no one can extinguish.

So, for all you bruised, broken, and mistreated people, remember those you love. I am on fire for my Angel, and he makes me happier than anything I've ever experienced, despite what has happened or what will happen.

Happy Anniversary my Angel <3

"On Fire" ~Switchfoot

Letters to Juliet

Today, I raided my older brother's box of DVDs. (There are literally HUNDREDS. Who has time to watch these? Seriously?) I grabbed a stack of five or six and headed upstairs. Running into my father, I asked if he wanted to watch one with me and he said sure. I let him pick. (The three or four slasher, horror, blood blood blood movies were instantly gone.) Among the pile was a movie that I had been wanting to see for a long time, called Letters to Juliet. Picking this one, we both sat down, and watched to whole movie together.

By the end, I was in tears. 

This was a beyond beautiful, lovely, and funny movie. It pulled at my heart strings and the ends of my smile the whole adventure. Set in Italy, it revolves around an American girl, engaged and dreaming to be a journalist, who comes to the famed city of Verona. There, she finds a wall where people write letters to Juliet, for advice and help. Soon after she meets a group of women who call themselves the "Secretaries of Juliet." They manage the wall, take all the letters, and write back. Intrigued, Sophie helps the next day, collecting letters, and finds one that is over FIFTY years old. She decides she has to write back, and an adventure ensues to find a long lost lover.

You NEED to watch this movie, especially if any of the following apply to you:

a. You love Shakespeare

b. You love Italy/travel

c. You believe in true love

d. You have a significant other... ahem...

Below is a trailer. I wish you all the love you deserve to chase after!

~Danny.

Cuz We're on the Edge

Right now, we're struggling, straddling the edge of a monstrous cliff of agony, pain, and suffering... But at the same time we are climbing the Precipice of Peace. Even though life may hand us the wrong card or give us an apple instead of that damn lemon we wanted, we will make it. We know that this is the moment of truth. Right here, right now, with you. Nothing else matters. If we fall, we will get up. You can fly as high as low as I can sink.

We will make it together <3

UPDATES!!!

Hey guys!!!

Sorry, I know I haven't posted in a while. Summer is here, and that is about to change. Be ready to be bombarded.

Just some updates on the site:

~YES, the name has changed. I feel it reflects more of the purpose and desire of this blog rather than relating that it is a blog solely for me. This blog is for EVERYBODY.

~Facebook Page is still up! Join and add friends! If you have a page, add me on that page! I'll do the same to you! http://www.facebook.com/pages/Love-Will-Find-a-Way/130668620285801

~Here is my PERESONAL email... email me with anything you want, whether you want to send me a picture, video to put on the blog, or just wanna say hi :) I want to hear from you and spread the word! dhkookykid@yahoo.com

Ok, Just some updates on me. I have now officially GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!! =D YAY!! Before that, I suffered a major break down after, well, a major break up, (ironic) and ended up staying in the psychiatric ward of the hospital for a few days. (Has anyone had a similar experience?) You will hear about that soon!! I do plan to write a book eventually :) Just recently, though, I found the love of my life <3 Tye, I love you, and I want to be with you forever <3 You and only you <3 We'll make it through this baby!

Well, thats all for now.. I will be adding more original pictures and pieces as well, so be on the lookout!

PEACE!!