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So lately i've just been down and wishing i was dead etc nad im too lazy to even look at the screan or use punctuation so yea imma just type and whatever shit comes out comes out. i feel like shit and idk my bf just makes me sad all the time and i make him sad all the time and i dont think im going to heaven and i hate god and my family and everyone else is disappointed in me and i cant even pass a test and i just feel so stupid and worthless and just yes :( i feel like id be better off dead, and i havent felt that way in a long time and im scared and angry and confused and broke and ugly and fat and just... everything. i just want to bleed it out.... and maybe i will....